Well if you haven’t noticed, I scheduled posts for when I am in Atlanta! I am hopefully enjoying my last day serving the Atlanta community. I hopefully have made new friends and have deepened my faith. I will be sure to recap when I get back. But I really wanted to participate in Hollie’s PBM Thursdays. This is for last week as I have no idea how I am feeling currently in Atlanta because I am not a fortune teller. (Remember this is a scheduled post!)
Physically AND Mentally- this week they are the same. I was feeling pretty down on myself physically. I wasn’t having body hate or anything, but questioning my physical fitness activity. I was unsure if and when I should go to the gym or go on a run. Because I really do love to work up a sweat, but I get obsessive about my workouts. I never know when to stop. And I don’t listen to my body well at all. So everyday I feel like I should exercise. Not just walk, really sweat. And if I can’t figure out when that is going to be I get pretty anxious. And then I have days where I seriously do not feel like doing it. I don’t want to because I am so busy and would enjoy doing other things like studying or hanging with a friend more. So it is a constant battle. or it was until I spoke to my mom and therapist and they said it was OK to want to get in that needed physical activity. Sometimes I will make myself go to the gym because it has been too long and I know how important physical activity is for the body and for my health. My therapist related it to eating foods we don’t totally enjoy because we know they are healthy. Sometimes you just have to suck it up. Hearing this freed me and allowed me to look forward to my workout last Friday night. I jumped on that treadmill, set it for 30 minutes and let myself relax. I felt the strength of my legs and core and enjoyed every minute of that me time!
Brag. I made an awesome angel food cake for my mom’s birthday. And my parents said it is not only the best angel food cake they have ever had, but the best cake! I DID IT RIGHT! I feel so accomplished. Am I allowed one more brag? Well I am going to brag anyway. I have figured out that I love waking up early in the morning. That means setting an alarm even on break! When I wake up early it isn’t for exercise or studying, it is for me time. And parents time. My parents are both up going through their morning routines and I get to join them. It makes it so I get two times a day with them instead of the few hours when they get home from work before bedtime. I hope everyone can find the things that work best for them! Just remember what works for you probably doesn’t work so well for another even if that person is your twin!
Have a great Thursday! I cannot wait to be back reading all of your lovely posts 😀
Plateit & Climb 
I’m sorry to hear you have been down on yourself girl. I can relate somewhat to that as I took the better half of the week away from running. I was questioning my fitness level but I know you cant lose fitness is a matter of days (something you’ve built up in weeks…months..years). That angel cake was to die for by the way! 🙂
I think we all have those down on yourself days and weeks. What is important is that we jump back up! You are super fit! I am glad you realize this, and if you need reassurance then text me and I’ll inform you of the truth
I know how it feels to be torn between working out because you love it and working out because you feel like you have to. It’s not a fun situation to be in at all. I’m glad you were able to shake it off after having conversations with your mom and therapist. They always seem to know exactly what to say. Can’t wait to hear about your stories when you get back 🙂
I have sooo many stories! I don’t even know where to start yet! My mom just got here and I am just rambling and rambling and making no sense!
Ahhh what a post!! Love it, hun!! so much 🙂 I’m so happy that you have found a peace with peace with exercise…and those brags rock!! Can’t wait to hear from you when you’re back from Atlanta!
I am back 😀 !!! And more peace was found on this trip I have so much more to live for than worrying about when I am going to freaking exercise!
i am glad to hear that you are figuring out that while exercise is important it isn’t necessary for a healthy lifestyle. even a walk can calm the mind, no need to sweat for days!
haha so true!
It’s definitely great to hear that you were able to find some peace with the ‘to exercise or not to exercise’ debate… I think that’s something that most people have struggled with at some point, especially when they’ve had to deal with obsessive exercise habits in the past and they’re trying to figure out if their current desire to exercise comes from a healthy mentality or not. As long as it makes you feel good, then it can’t be a bad thing 🙂
O I love that philosophy! It really is all about how i makes you feel!
I totally know what you mean about the exercise debate. I love love love hard endurance exercise – maybe it’s the endorphins but it’s just something that makes me feel awesome – but sometimes I know that hey, I’ve been cycling 8 days in a row…maybe I should back off….yet physically I don’t feel like I need to. Or some days I don’t feel like exercising at all, even when I haven’t been trainng hard, and I feel guilty about that too! It’s all about balance ad listening to your body though – and yes, it’s okay, it’s a GOOD thing even, to crave exercise – it’s healthy for you! I gotta tell you though right now I don’t even feel like getting off my couch haha. I’m really hoping you’re having a blast in Atlanta too – I’ve been seeing your tweets and it does sound like you’ve been flexible and enjoying yourself – proud of you girl!!
Aw thanks girl! I know you struggle with this a lot and I want you to know that it is definitely about finding balance. Something I am doing a lot of, especially in Atlanta. The trip was amazing and flexibility was everywhere!
I hope your trip went well!
Thank you! It was AMAZING